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My {unedited} Struggle with Being a Mom

I sat on the little couch trying to nurse him, but he screamed and pushed me away, flinging his head back.  Right then my blood sugar dropped (I have hypoglycemia) and I got a weak spell and felt like I could barely move.

Lukas was working on a wood project on another part of the property here where we’re staying in Honduras, and I wondered if I was going crazy because how in the world could one little baby make me feel so exhausted?

Two of my neighbors here have 7 kids. Why couldn’t I take care of one?

Did I really need help? Am I going crazy? Taking care of one baby should be easy! 

As I started feeling worse, I decided I really did need help, and was able to take Wilder to the house next door where he could play with friends for an hour so I could take a quick nap and reset my blood sugar.

Earlier that day I was astounded that it had taken me 45 minutes to make applesauce and feed Wilder. 45 minutes??! Peeling, cutting, steaming, mashing apples. Giving tiny little bites to a tiny little mouth.

Why does feeding him take so long? Why can’t I take care of him and get 17 other things done? Why do I feel like I’m not doing enough and not doing a good job?

I had all these thoughts going on in my head, and struggled with feeling guilty that I wasn’t doing a good job. Frustration, doubt, inadequacy…

When I’m feeling conflicted, all I can really do is stop and ask God what HE thinks about the situation. And ask Him to give me HIS perspective. I’m so thankful God’s Word gives us truth about whatever situation we are in!

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is TRUE …think about such things.” -Philippians 4:8 (emphasis mine)


Basically at the root of the struggle, here are the lies I was believing:

  • The stuff I wanted to do was more important or meaningful than taking care of Wilder.
  • I should be able to do everything and if I don’t I’m a bad mom
  • I should be able to do it without help.

SO after sorting through these things…here is the truth I have to remind myself of (daily!) when these struggles pop up…

  1. “Children are NOT a distraction from more important work. They are THE MOST important work.” 

I love this quote from John Trainer, MD. Tending little hearts and needs is a calling from God for mothers- a calling so much more important than emails and to do lists!

Titus 2:4 emphasizes the importance for women to LOVE their children, and to keep LEARNING to love their children more…

Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. Then they can urge the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God.” – Titus 2:3-4

2. False GUILT is not from God.

The feelings of false guilt I get for needing help sometimes is NOT from God. The feelings of false guilt from never being a “good enough” mom is NOT from God.

False guilt is very “me-centered,” instead of being God-centered. It focuses on me not being a good mom instead of God’s grace covering my shortcomings.

I don’t have time to get into it here, but here is an excellent article I found on the difference between false guilt and true guilt.

The cure for false guilt is to go back to the gospel, to go back to what Jesus accomplished for us at the cross. Romans 8:1-2 says

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.”

From there I need to stop the “me-centered” thoughts of inadequacy, and focus on the “God-centered” thoughts of Jesus making up for my inadequacy. Jesus is enough!

3. It’s ok (and good!) to ask for Help.

God wants believers to help and serve eachother…

“You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love.”     – Galations 5:13

It is easier for me to serve others than have them serve me. Why should I not receive others blessing me? Usually pride or false guilt keeps me from asking for help.

So today… today I rejoice. I still feel these struggles rising up inside me, but now I know the truth I need to remind myself of. And there is so much freedom and peace in that.

If you’re a mama who struggles with feeling like you’re not getting important work done, feeling like you’re not a good mom, or if you’re just plain tired and need some help… I hope these words encourage you.

REST in His grace. And press on doing the important work of being a mama that you are called to.

Even if it takes you 45 minutes to make applesauce and feed your baby 😉

With big hugs,


If this encouraged you in any way, I would LOVE to hear from you in the comments below!!! 

my-real-struggle-as-a-mom-honduras_0001.jpgHow could this little face cause any trouble? 😉

my-real-struggle-as-a-mom-honduras_0003.jpgWilder LOVES playing in the wide open spaces here in Honduras

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10 Helpful Things to Keep in Your Diaper Bag

Happy Tuesday friends! 🙂

Late last night, Lukas, Wilder and I got in to Louisville KY where we have a few photo events in the next week. It is SO beautiful here!! This morning we did our favorite thing, sat on the front porch overlooking the hundreds of acres of rolling fields, sipping our steaming hot coffee. Wilder played next to us in the grass with a friendly farm kitty.

So today I am sharing from the beautiful bluegrass state!!

I’ve been very excited to share some more practical momma posts. One thing people ask me about all the time is my diaper bag. So I thought today I would share what’s in my bag, and which brand I love!


Before I had a baby, I remember thinking two things about diaper bags. One, why do they have to be so ugly (I’m sorry I don’t mean to be mean, but for real!)? And two, how in the world do moms carry a purse, a diaper bag AND their baby everywhere?!

Then I found and fell in love with the perfect diaper bag for me. Lily Jade diaper bags… they look like regular purses – because they are! Each bag is in of itself, a gorgeous leather purse, and then they have a diaper bag insert that fits right on top.




So for me, it’s perfect because I carry all of my regular purse-ey things at the bottom, and then my diaper bag is ready to go on top. Another nice thing is when I have a babysitter or drop Wilder off in the church nursery, I can just take the insert out and still have my purse to use.


So what do I keep in my diaper bag?!


10 Helpful Things to Keep in Your Diaper Bag

1. Extra Diapers

  • Of course right? I usually keep two extra cloth diapers with me. If I’m traveling for days, I’ll do disposable.

2. Wipes

  • I like Babyganics or Honest Wipes but lately I’ve been using any cheap  fragrance free wipes with a snap lid so it doesn’t open while I’m traveling!

3. Wet Bag

  • Here is the one I have from the Pat a Cake Baby. I use a small one for my purse. If you don’t cloth diaper you could just use some plastic bags.

4. Blanket

  • The one pictured here is just a cheap one from Target with a cute print 😉 but my favorite are Aden & Anais muslin blankets. I used them for everything when Wilder was little!

5. Diaper Rash Cream

  • I hardly ever need rash cream at home since we use cloth, but when I’m on the go I like to have some handy. This California Baby rash cream is a good size for travel and has good ingredients.

6. Hand Sanitizer Spray

7. Toy to chew on

  • Sophie la Girafe – Why is this the trendy toy?! Haha! But babies sure do love it! Ours is named “Spot”.  🙂

8. Extra Onesie

9. Baby Wrap

  • I love my Solly Baby Wrap! It folds so small. You never know when you need it!

10. Nursing Cover

  • I travel, alot! So I nurse on the go all the time and I feel most comfortable in any situation with this handy thing. 😉


And here is what I keep in the purse part! Mints, sunglasses, my wallet, a snack, my phone & my iphone tripod 😉



What about you? Any must-have items in your diaper bag that I missed??

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How to Camp with a Baby

How in the world do you camp with a baby? Is it even possible??!

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When Wilder was three months old we posted photos of us camping at the beach.

My facebook inbox started filling up with all sorts of questions about how we did it, and asking if we had any tips.

We LOVE camping and I am so excited to share some tips I’ve come up with to help make camping with your little one easier!

1. Adjust your expectations

Camping with a baby is going to be different than camping by yourself. Depending on how old your baby is, what stage they are going through, and how they are feeling when you are on your trip, your baby may be really easy or fussier than normal.

Expect that, and just go with the flow! It can still be a ton of fun!

On Wilder’s first camping trip, I was shocked to find that he was actually even EASIER than when he was at home because he loved seeing so many different things and being held all the time. He didn’t even want to come home!

2. Adjust your normal camping activity schedule

Maybe when you usually camp, you wake up at dawn for a long jog, take a hot shower, and then make breakfast. Now that you have a baby, you’re going to wake up and nurse, nurse, nurse. 😉  Feeding your baby, changing them, and getting them ready will take some time.

Also don’t plan a full day of intense activities. Instead of three hikes, plan one and see how that goes before adding more activities.

Pay attention to how your baby is taking the activities and make sure they get the naps they need.

3. Know your baby’s routine

Knowing your baby’s routine is probably the biggest tip I have for camping parents. For Wilder, we had him on an eat, wake, sleep routine at home so when we were camping he was very predictable.

If your baby usually has a nice long nap from 10am-12pm, make sure you build that nap time in to hang low at your campsite. Think of when your baby is the most awake and alert and plan that time to be your main hike or other activity.

When Wilder was 3 months old, he was most happy and awake after his second feeding of the day. So we would plan our main hike during that time and be back in time for his next nap.


4. Bring a good carrier

For one of my camping trips I only had my wrap (which I LOVE) but Wilder was 5 months old and had just entered a stage where he REALLY wanted to face forward and look around. He kept craning the whole time trying to turn around and see everything. Now I have the Lillebaby Complete airflow which I love because he can face forward and it’s cool.


I think if your baby is really little a wrap might be all you need. Make sure you are comfortable wearing your baby at home before you go on your hike!

5. Bring a baby basket, peapod, or other baby bed

When Wilder was little he slept in a Moses basket at home, so we just brought that on our camping trips.

Even if you use a crib at home, I would recommend having something separate that is safe for your baby to sleep in unless your baby is used to sleeping with you the whole night. Wilder loved having his own little place to sleep, toss and turn.

We recently got the peapod and I have really loved it for traveling because it folds so small! It’s recommended for babies one year and older so if you have a little one maybe look for other options.

6. Dress baby in layers

When you’re out in the wild, temperatures can vary a great deal throughout the day. On our Yosemite summer camping trip, we woke up one morning to snow! Bring clothes that baby can be cool in, like onesies, or t shirts, and things that will make him a bit warmer like a baby hoodie,  or heavy jacket depending where you are. Remember pants and socks you can layer as well. I preferred baby sweat pants so he could  wear two at a time if he needed to.

Think about where you are camping, check the weather, and plan accordingly. Think through the days you will be camping and make a list of what baby might need to be warm or cool.

7. Use a camping chair for nursing  or feeding baby in your tent

This was huge for me! It means I didn’t only have to nurse laying down. We just used one of the foldup camping chairs we already had and I kept it set up in a corner of our tent.

8. Bring a baby medicine bag

I have a little ziploc bag all ready to go for all my travels that contains infant tylenol (make sure you know dosage), syringe, thermometer, saline drops, and the Frida’s snotsucker for congestion.

9. Keep an extra eye on baby while you play

Pebbles! Pinecones! Bugs! So many things a little baby could choke on. So just keep an extra eye on him while he is playing in the grass.

Or if you’re camping at the beach be careful he doesn’t grab a handful of sand and dump it in his eyes… can you tell that happened to me? 🙂

10. Carry extra water and snacks as a nursing mama

If you’re nursing YOU NEED LOTS AND LOTS OF WATER. So for every hike pack a water bottle for every hour you will be gone! At least!

You will also need calories throughout the day so pack nuts, fruit, cheese sticks, and other good snacks for your hiking and adventuring.

I hope this was helpful!! Have you ever camped with your baby? What worked for you? I would love to hear any tips you have for camping with a baby in the comments!









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